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The Discomfort of Disbelief

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 10/21/2020

"The Sentinel's Prayer", acrylic on canvas, Susan T. Martin2017

“The feeling of being doubted…is an ever-present background noise…”

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The SLOG of Joy

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/03/2020

Grumble. Growl. Grunt. . Swear. Sweat. Stomp. . Punch. Pound. Pant. . Breathe. Binge. Boss. . Shout. Scream, Smear. . Fall in a heap, exhausted. Then get up, clean up, and do it all over again. . There is joy in this. This “living” we do. No matter how sweaty, or dirty, or ugly, this […]

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A Psalm of My Own

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/01/2020

Written after Fighting With Myself All Night . Jehovah knows my suffering, hears my pleas each day . He knows the pain this madness brings, knows I’m made of clay . I thought I’d be forsaken, and all my hope was lost . […]

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3 Hours Sleep and I’m Feelin’ Good!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/20/2020

Righty O! How about that Picture, huh? Oh, my… . That’s my “I’m so tired I can fall down right in this spot and sleep for a month” face. And it’s none too pretty. It’s also the most unflattering view of my nose…I was never unhappy with my nose until my Ex broke it . […]

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SUSAN IS HERE! NEVER FEAR!!!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/10/2020

seems like an eternity ago, when my hair was long, and I still felt pretty. This is before all the accidents, surgeries and injuries and before Mom died.

…there is no “wait until” time to be beautiful…

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Who Do I Think I Am?

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 06/04/2020

I do silly things sometimes. Fairly often, in reality. Most of the time they are thoughtless mistakes, quickly forgotten by all who have been effected by them. There was a time, in the past life I lived, the one I talk so much about on this site, that I did intentionally bad things. Things that […]

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THE PAIN of it ALL

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 06/02/2020

What do I say to a black mother whose son was murdered at the hands, or knee, of a white man? . I saw George dying, in front of all the world, murdered. Every fiber of my being cried out for action to save him, knock that cop off of him, hurt those who were […]

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Full Heart

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 04/29/2020

Will humans today heed the warning? In these times of pain and mourning ?

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A Little Better/Thanks to Friends

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 04/17/2020

I must not complain. I MUST NOT COMPLAIN. I MUST NOT COMPLAIN! I MUST NOT COMPLAIN!!!!! I hope I am getting better about that. When so many have, and are, suffering SO MUCH. I shudder to think how it must sound to people who had to say their last goodbye via cell phone. My own […]

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We Are Going To Make It

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 03/23/2020

Is anyone out there as old as I am? I grew up to the Mary Tyler Moore show, on every week as I recall. When I was 10 or so, she was beautiful to me, not just as a pretty woman (which she was and is, if she is still alive, is she?…)but as a […]

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