Category: growth

The Discomfort of Disbelief

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 10/21/2020

"The Sentinel's Prayer", acrylic on canvas, Susan T. Martin2017

“The feeling of being doubted…is an ever-present background noise…”

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PARTY GIRL!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 09/08/2020

Tags art, artist, Bipolar Disorder, clean, Love art, Painting, Party, Partying, Sober

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The SLOG of Joy

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/03/2020

Grumble. Growl. Grunt. . Swear. Sweat. Stomp. . Punch. Pound. Pant. . Breathe. Binge. Boss. . Shout. Scream, Smear. . Fall in a heap, exhausted. Then get up, clean up, and do it all over again. . There is joy in this. This “living” we do. No matter how sweaty, or dirty, or ugly, this […]

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A Psalm of My Own

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/01/2020

Written after Fighting With Myself All Night . Jehovah knows my suffering, hears my pleas each day . He knows the pain this madness brings, knows I’m made of clay . I thought I’d be forsaken, and all my hope was lost . […]

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SUSAN IS HERE! NEVER FEAR!!!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/10/2020

seems like an eternity ago, when my hair was long, and I still felt pretty. This is before all the accidents, surgeries and injuries and before Mom died.

…there is no “wait until” time to be beautiful…

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Secrets…Many Secrets

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/05/2020

Should we tell our secrets? Burden our loved one’s with them? Jeopardize our relationships with society, our peers? Risk our reputations? . Many people choose not to. Instead they carry that burning bucket of nastiness hidden away deep inside. Letting it rot away all their prospects for joy, searing their potential away […]

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Who Do I Think I Am?

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 06/04/2020

I do silly things sometimes. Fairly often, in reality. Most of the time they are thoughtless mistakes, quickly forgotten by all who have been effected by them. There was a time, in the past life I lived, the one I talk so much about on this site, that I did intentionally bad things. Things that […]

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THE PAIN of it ALL

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 06/02/2020

What do I say to a black mother whose son was murdered at the hands, or knee, of a white man? . I saw George dying, in front of all the world, murdered. Every fiber of my being cried out for action to save him, knock that cop off of him, hurt those who were […]

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The CLEAN Effect!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 05/04/2020

Yessssssss….Deep inhale….Yessssss…. . There is often some bright speck, a teeny-weeny glint, in the midst of devastation. Often this tiny glimmer of good goes unseen for years, decades, even centuries. I’m sure there have been major disasters where no bright side was ever found, the loss being only that. A loss. Losses. […]

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Full Heart

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 04/29/2020

Will humans today heed the warning? In these times of pain and mourning ?

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