Category: clean and sober

Just Offering Hope

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 11/10/2020

No, I don’t have any fancy cures. You don’t need to send any money to a 1-800 number. I just want to share something that lifts me up and makes my heart rejoice every time I hear it: God loves me, and he forgives me! I thought I was unloveable…scared, addicted, violent, crazed and oh, […]

Tags forgiveness, God's Love, hope, life

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The Discomfort of Disbelief

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 10/21/2020

"The Sentinel's Prayer", acrylic on canvas, Susan T. Martin2017

“The feeling of being doubted…is an ever-present background noise…”

Tags arthritis, assault, chronic pain, degenerative disc disease, diagnosis, doctors, Doubt, Fibromyalgia, Fusion, healing, illness, life lessons, love, mental illness, pain, Rheumatology, Surgery, truth, Validation

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Cry for Redemption

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 09/30/2020

…there was nothing…but to keep chasing the high, reality became too painful…married you so…you could not testify against him?…

Tags arrest, ATF, domestic violence, drugs, FBI, forgiveness, God's Love, hope, jail, joy, love, mental illness, recovery, repentance, sexual assault, sobriety, SWAT

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Built Up in Love

…Know that you are loved…

Tags Bipolar Disorder, childhood sexual abuse, forgiveness, God's Love, healing, hope, Jesus Christ, love, mental illness, prayer, recovery, sexual abuse, sexual assault, suicide, therapy

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The Night Air

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 09/10/2020

Life on the southern Gulf Coast of Florida is pleasant for a portion of the year, when on the subject of weather. When I moved to South Florida in the early ’80’s we enjoyed it most of the year, and the few hottest months were July thru September. Then the most refreshing, crisp and dry […]

Tags Climate change, family, Florida, home, Hurricanes, Storms

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PARTY GIRL!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 09/08/2020

Tags art, artist, Bipolar Disorder, clean, Love art, Painting, Party, Partying, Sober

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The SLOG of Joy

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/03/2020

Grumble. Growl. Grunt. . Swear. Sweat. Stomp. . Punch. Pound. Pant. . Breathe. Binge. Boss. . Shout. Scream, Smear. . Fall in a heap, exhausted. Then get up, clean up, and do it all over again. . There is joy in this. This “living” we do. No matter how sweaty, or dirty, or ugly, this […]

Tags abuse, Anger, art, beauty, brothers, children, creativity, daughters, depression, freedom, friends, friendship, future, gardening, gratitude, insanity, joy, learning, life, life lessons, Lonely, love, memories, mothers, nature, parents, peace, Poetry, prayer, recovery, relationships, sex, truth, violence, war, work

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A Psalm of My Own

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 08/01/2020

Written after Fighting With Myself All Night . Jehovah knows my suffering, hears my pleas each day . He knows the pain this madness brings, knows I’m made of clay . I thought I’d be forsaken, and all my hope was lost . […]

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3 Hours Sleep and I’m Feelin’ Good!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/20/2020

Righty O! How about that Picture, huh? Oh, my… . That’s my “I’m so tired I can fall down right in this spot and sleep for a month” face. And it’s none too pretty. It’s also the most unflattering view of my nose…I was never unhappy with my nose until my Ex broke it . […]

Tags art, faith, learning, life, relationships, truth, work

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SUSAN IS HERE! NEVER FEAR!!!

Post author By Susan T. Martin
Post date 07/10/2020

seems like an eternity ago, when my hair was long, and I still felt pretty. This is before all the accidents, surgeries and injuries and before Mom died.

…there is no “wait until” time to be beautiful…

Tags art, creativity, friends, learning, life, relationships