I Don’t Know Where I Am

That may sound strange…but I am lost inside my head now. All seems dark and dismal, and pain is all around me. I just want to sleep, but it brings no relief . I know that I must hang on , hang on to my faith, hang on to all I have learned about my illness.

It has been a while since I have felt this dark, and I must use all my strength to get back into the light. I want to run thru the woods and feel the sun on my face. I want to feel love again, and loved. I want Susie to come back, to feel hopeful and kind again. I know this will pass, I will white-knuckle my way thru…

Follow the bouncing ball…I don’t feel sane at all…