Deep Breath In…and hold…Breath Out.

Wouldn’t it be funny if, after really impressing on the Doctor how awful I feel, all the new tests showed nothing! It seems to often be that way with me, to the point that my integrity (and sanity….) come into question when the results are discussed. If this new round of X-rays, Echocardiogram and venous Doppler Ultrasound are all inconclusive, Dr. B. will most likely have the little white bus drop by the house with 2 giant white-garbed nurse-like gentlemen to escort me out to said van. A little dose of Thorazine and off I would go to nappie land. Sounds good to me right now:).

I must hold on tight, glory in the good and golden days, when the sky is filled with puffy white balls of cotton and a background of brightest blue. Days when a cool glass of homemade sweet tea tastes like the elixer of life.


Ahhhhhh. What a dream, even if it is whimsical.,.kittens,and dogs,and me,and Dad! 057

Author: ST Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...

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