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Ode to Futility

                              Ode to Futility                                           by S.T. Martin c.3/16/15


Is life about our triumphs, the great leaps and bounds we’ve taken?

Should our biggest worry be the car payment we’ll be making?

Is our day spent in trepidation, fear of today’s news?

 Do we moan about our tragedies, howl and cry the blues?

“Where has my life gone, year gone,

day gone- where can it be?

Who’ll buy the bacon, cut the muster?

And who did this to me?”

“Where are my looks, my youth, my teeth-

my god- where have they gone?

What shall I wear and who will care,

the day my time is done?”

How futile it all seems at times, our spinning on our wheel.

We expected something more than this!

What happened, what’s the deal?

Perhaps we put too much stock in where we thought we’d go?

What good did having all this stuff do,

When no one will ever know?

“Where has my life gone, year gone, love gone?

Where can it be?

Who will buy the bacon, cut the muster

And who did this to me?”

“Where are my looks, my youth, my teeth?

My god, where have they gone?

What will I wear, and who will care,

The day my time is done?”

By Susan T. Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...

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