Today and the Lessons

I have forgotten to be grateful, and I am so glad that another blogger has shared in his blog strategies for coping with dark moods. I have spent years learning about the mental illness that plagues me, but it still so easy to forget.

I am going to really try to focus on others, and get out of this self pity trip I have been on. It is easy to forget how far I have come, so I must fight 10 times harder to overcome.

Yesterday the pain management doctor said that I need to lose weight, without even talking to me about haw much I suffer. So he can kiss my butt! My large butt! I know that it is so much more than that, and he was just busy and cranky, and I can take it.

I still might write down how he made me feel , though.

So, I am going to pray now, and go to sleep. Thanking God for our ever- so-beautiful EARTH! I saw a monarch today, just one- but he was drinking from the milkweed I planted! Thank you JAH! I love you, and I am so grateful for all my blessings, most of all for the forgiveness of my sins through Jesus!

I think I am going to make this my poetry blog, with less journalling. we shall see!

Author: ST Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...

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