I have some difficulty in telling my stories, usually flashbacks ensue, many times physical illness such as stomach aches, headaches, and sleeplessness. And of course we can’t forget the PTSD symptoms such as hyper vigilance and panic attacks.
But I must say that in the telling there is release, and I am able to embrace that little girl inside and assure her that none of the abuse was her fault. Nor is it the fault of any child when they are violated by adults. You readers out there that may harbor feelings like I did, believing the lies that get foisted on abuse survivors-do not accept blame for the abuse you suffered. It is simply NOT TRUE, AND IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!
I have to go for now, arm hurting, mind racing. We are survivors keep pushing on.