life lessons

Keep Pushing On…

Slipping inside of me when I’m not looking- that is what the evil bipolar Anti-kiko does. Making me think you can’t help me, making me believe that you don’t care…that you never did.

Why is love so painful, why do I long for friendship only to cut the cord so violently when it is found?

Fear of losing her again. Losing me. The Anti-kiko knows, she uses. I am not yet relieved/ not prepared for repentance.

Look-I am in here. You just can’t see me:-)

Tags addiction, codependency, grief, love

By Susan T. Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...

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