Where Do We Go From Here?

Today, like every day, was exhausting….

It begins with me sneaking awake, trying to keep my groaning to a minimum when my feet hit the floor. See, this is my quiet time, when I care for all the animals, get the paper off the driveway while my coffee brews, look at the dawn sky and wish life could always be so peaceful.  I make it all sound so dull, and make myself sound SO unhappy. I’m not, not really.

Sure, I suffer, but don’t we all? Every single person on this earth has something they wish was different. But my troubles have taught me SO much, about life, love, about focusing my fading energy on  learning about God, His Son Jesus, and the Ransom he gave. It really opened my eyes to think about a perfect, beautiful, healthy man- the very SON OF GOD- allowing himself to be murdered like a criminal so that I can have my sins washed away. Me, a depraved, immoral, drug addicted criminal myself, can have a clean standing before Jehovah!

I have nothing to complain about. I will really try to remember this fact!


Author: ST Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...

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