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How Was YOUR Day?!!?

It was a real “hair-ripper-outer” for me today. it did not help that I slept around 20 minutes last night, the rest was spent tossing and trying to get comfortable. I have been in so much pain, the sleeplessness goes hand in hand in a vicious cycle. I have been in a flare up of the vertigo condition I have. It’s called Begnign Paroxysmal Positional Vertigo, and it started back last April 5th.
Once the court case is over with I’ll be able to tell you what happened, and how I got so injured. Today I called my Attorney and asked him if we had to wait until I had the neck and back surgery to proceed with the case, or if we could just get it moving now. He said it was ok to go ahead now, and that he would get it done right away. It has been nearly a year since the accident, and I am so tired of waiting. I have suffered every day since the accident, I will be very glad when I have the neck and back surgery.
I have been fallling asleep sitting up today, that is how I almost killed myself in a car crash last week. The BPPV causes extreme fatigue also, it’s like my brain and body get exhausted trying to stay steady. So writing this right now is like pulling my fingernails out. I’ve been wanting to make this splendid and interesting, but I’m afraid I am going to have to rest a while.
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aren't i the cutest thing you've ever seen?
aren’t i the cutest thing you’ve ever seen?

By Susan T. Martin

I am an Artist, Poet and Author. A Survivor of Violent Sexual Abuse and Rape, I have lived thru Severe Domestic Violence, Twenty Three years of Addiction and Alcoholism, Family Dysfunction, Chronic Pain, Dependence on Opioids, and 2 Venomous Snake Bites...I have Been Stabbed, Shot at, Tied to a Tree and Choked Unconscious. A Quarter Horse Rolled on Me, as did a Lawn Tractor. I also Wrecked a Harley into a Tree! I also have PTSD and Rapid Cycling Bipolar Disorder, and spent my 18th birthday in a Locked Psychiatric Ward. I am so much more than this: I feel like a tiny seed that sprouted in a desert, and now has grown into a Passion Vine. My Art is my Voice, Screaming, Crying, Praying, Loving, Laughing, Healing- all in Riotous Color...